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When I told an old cowboy buddy of mine that I had been diagnosed with Bi-Polar 2, he was very understanding. "But look here," he cautioned "Don't let it become a crutch." I really try not to. But don't always do right. And that's on me.

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Each morning I wake and it starts, it says I’m ugly and not that smart
When I shower it tells me who deserves to my worst
This voice inside my mind, instructs me who I should malign
How to hurt them and where to hide their corpse

It’s my constant companion, this dark narrative
Of misery compounded tenfold
An observer I witness, my own mental illness
It’s a slow moving trainwreck, I’m told

There’s a long trail of upset folks, if my name said it only evokes
Foul memories, the results of my poor decisions
Unhinged, and on the loose, replicating my own abuse
It’s a wonder that I’ve yet to land in prison

It’s my constant companion, this long recitation
Of great heights and lows uncontrolled
Unable to challenge, this chemical imbalance
Like a slow moving trainwreck, I’m told

Weary of the voices that orchestrates all my choices
This behavior, my friends say has to end.
They’ve been there all this time, these dear pals of mine
For every rant and tortured distraction

It’s my constant companion, this new revelation
To reckon with all that I’ve done
Without medications, just shy of sedation
I’ll be a slow moving trainwreck, I’m told

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from Songs for the Hangman's Daughter, released March 28, 2017
Martin D-18

Words and Music M. Rubin

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Mark Rubin, Jew of Oklahoma New Orleans, Louisiana

Oklahoma-born, Texas-reared, and now living in New Orleans, multi-instrumentalist Mark Rubin is an unabashed Southern Jew.

Known equally for his muscular musicianship and larger-than-life persona. Over an accomplished 30+ year career, he has accompanied or produced a virtual who’s-who of American traditional music. With Danny Barnes, he founded Pioneer Proto-Americana band the Bad Livers
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